I know I am alone in my innermost dream and that there is only God that I could rely on.... but there are times when I just wish that there will be people I could somehow trust with my thoughts, my plans, and aspirations. I used to be a daredevil, an adventurous individual... not caring about what other people say so long as I don't hurt them or step on them, but I think I lost myself on the way. I need to reconnect with my old self, that brave one who could face the unknown fearlessly.
I am in the middle of confusion... I got trapped in temporary glory that is fleeting and I try to fan the flames in futility. Now, seeing the hopelessness of it all, I am lost. Who am I?
Dreamer? Do I dare call myself that?. . . . what are my dreams now? I lost it... or was I a coward not to walk my way to it? Since it's a very big dream really.... It could blow anyone's mind... but it is the desire I have that kept me alive... I just hope I won't let go!
Superhero? I want to make a big difference to the world really. . . but why is it that I only hurt people... though unknowingly and unintentionally, my presence only creates pain to them.
I used to be all this, but I realized something scary about me.... I AM A COWARD!... I allowed myself to be trapped in this web of fears. I used to live freely, laugh joyfully, challenge myself to get out of the comfort zone.... what happened?
I became attached to the mediocrity of my surroundings. I became too comfortable with just being silent in the background. I withdrew from pressures and became mediocre. THIS IS NOT ME! My enemy is nobody else but myself! If only I could punch myself in the face!
Anyhow... I am slowly creating a door of new adventures for myself. I am a bit sad to be leaving people behind again. But that is life. People are there for you for a reason if they do not join you in your progress, then they are not meant to stay in your path... sad isn't it? Specially when you hold them dear...
Anyhow, I worked on this poster for my company
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