On my Forkroad: I have decided which way to go...

Really, after months of debate and inner struggle, I finally made a decision. I am happy and contented.
For now, I need to rest my mind and do everything I have in my power to focus all my attention on my present situation. I smile even though I have no certainty where I am heading. All I needed is to have faith in myself, and everything will be okay. Soon, opportunities will open to welcome me, and with that in mind, I have no need to be worried. I am casting all my cares away, as for now, I need to rediscover my self, and from nothing again, I will build all the things I want to do and rediscover my passions and talents. I don't have anything in my name ... all I have is this determination and honesty to myself. What's important is that I know for now that I am not easily vacuumed and fashioned by other people's interpretation of who I am.




The worst thing a person could do to himself, is to conform to other people's mediocre ideas of him... hindering him from evolving to be himself in all his entirety.... it is a sorry sight if that happens. Because he/she can never be happy, conforming to other people's idea of who he is; which is vague and incomplete.

To shine as your best is something you owe to yourself. Never let other people influence you. Learn to discern who you really are, only YOU can pin down what works best for you.

Good days... I welcome you! ^__^

Refocusing my Dreams, to make it into a Reality

A few more days from now, and I am on my way towards my goals. I know that I will lose a lot of things, i.e., Ripened friendships, familiar atmosphere, consistent source of money, but oddly, I am perfectly fine with it. Not that they lost their value, but it just didn't fit in my plans anymore.

I overstayed, I think. Because I had been unhappy for months now, doing everything like a robot would. And I fell into a trap of seeking validation of my work from other people...

I got tired of those empty pursuits of praises from people. I got some, but lost some. To seek validation from others is indeed addictive, and I fell into a trap of spreading myself too thin, doing a lot of tricks just to get attention... but in the long run, it lacks satisfaction. The false luster it promised waned as the time passed me by.

Reflecting on my life as I was wont to do at intervals when I am alone with myself, I realized to my great surprise, that I'm the only one I needed to believe in.

I suffered for months now. I did function, doing what others wanted, but inside, I was struggling. They applauded me, yet why wasn't I happy? Then it dawned on me, I wasn't carrying out my passion, my identity... I let other people take me according to their whims... that I eventually lost myself on the way. I lost my sense of identity because of my folly.

My stupidity eventually took its toll. I have produced mediocrity... I wasn't fooling anyone anymore. My works have no enthusiasm and lacked the heart it needed to stand and speak for itself. I was in turmoil... I knew I needed to let go... but I continued on... stubbornly, until I couldn't look at my works anymore. I was repulsed by it.

That's why I needed to let go... and when I finally gave in to the idea, a sense of peace gradually took over me. I discovered that in order to show people that individual side of you, you mustn't be too competitive of other people... look inside you, and it's okay to fail. I discovered that there was never a competition with other people because I am a unique individual. The only person I should try to please is myself and make my God proud of me.

Little by little, my enthusiasm is already coming back to me... it's gonna be a good life! ^___^
I owe it to myself and to others, to be my very best, to be able to function well in society by being myself! It's good to know that I am important in this world, just as I am... :D

Voice from Oblivion

So all of these faces
And brand new places
And a fresh start to my life
And now I know where I wanna go
I'm gonna make sure I do it just right
Cause if I dont I know things wont feel right



I am excited to start on this project... someday, I will be having a voice, enough to be heard. I will be the voice of the ones whose cries were silenced, by no less than their own mothers who should be the ones to protect them and love them. I feel so much love for these little ones, and I cry for their stifled cries. May their cry for justice reach the hearts of the people...and may they stop the abuse and murder for the little ones.

There are 3 kinds of people in this world. Those that make things happen. Those that watch things happen, and those that say: 'what happened?!' :)

Sports personalities -- A pleasant surprise in the Catholic Priesthood today!

Fatherhood and being married to the church was the calling of these popular, good-looking athletes who, at the peak of their talents, have decided to enter the seminary. Priestly calling is not a job, but a calling and a privilege given by God. To be called to this service is a gift. I am still at loss for words as I read about these amazing people... who had fame, girls, image, looks.... they had everything, but they were humble enough to strip themselves of the glories of the world, and embrace the life with God.

Grant Desme

Joseph Freedy

I think they're amazing. Masculinity is so much distorted nowadays. The media feeds the people with trash... that to be a true alpha male, is to get the girls, be rich, and be famous... Well, these people knew that life... and they found out that it's not the peak of happiness!

The Foolish traveler - - my story

Have you ever read the story of the foolish traveler that I posted here months ago? Well, it's a very good story. Click here to read it.

He's foolish alright, but he was kind. And he was happy because he had no malice in his body. He doesn't care what he loses. He wants to see people happy.

Well, I remembered the tale because I used the title. Well, all of us are travelers here on Earth... we journey until we find our place in this world. I am starting a new chapter of my life. New job, new dreams to weave, new path to follow... My dreams are the only fuel that keeps me going. :)

From ground zero, I need to rehash my life. Clear my head of all the unnecessary things that bother me. I am very excited. I can see the future ahead of me is so bright. I will of course find some hurdles along the way, but I can manage... for now, move on. It doesn't matter how little my steps will be, what's important is that I have decided to have change in my life.

It's really odd that I have a very strong sense of purpose... My path is a foolish path and risky, but what are dreamers for if not being crazy and taking risks? The reason why they are called dreamers is because they dare to do the impossible... make the invisible visible... enough said... :D