Tribute to Pope John Paul II's Beatification

This coming May 1, 2011, the people of the Universal Church will be watching for the Beatification of Pope John Paul II who had made a lot of landmarks in history. Few knew about the history of this remarkable successor to the chair of St. Peter, and so here I will list down some of what I read about him.

- While still a child, his classmates used to tease him that he'll be a saint one day.
- While still a young priest, Karol Wojtyla went to confession, and the Franciscan priest Padre Pio told him that one day he will become the Pope.
- He was the Fatima Pope of which the Blessed Virgin Mary talks about in Fatima when she said that she asked a priest from her Son to sit in the chair of St. Peter to crush the communist party of in Europe (true enough, he had been friends with Mikhail Gurbachev of Russia and had been in tireless opposition of Russia's communist movement)
- He has Totus Tuus as his apostolic motto (latin for I'm all yours) which is a response to the Blessed Virgin's call to him.
- His coat of arms is the only coat of arms among all the popes which bears the letter M for Mary. A proof that he indeed embodied the personalty of the predicted pope of Fatima.
- His papacy reached out to the hearts of the leaders of the world. The most traveled pope, or the "gypsy" pope, and appealed to the youths.

There are so many things that proves that this man is truly a builder of Bridges.
Other people and even some Catholic bishops and priests may have hated him, which is sad, but there is no denying that Christ is truly faithful to His Church and had given the keys to St. Peter and his successors.

Pope John Paul II has called the Jews "Older brothers" since Jesus Christ is a Jew himself. Without the Jews, there will be no Christ for the Catholics to know, contrary to what others say about Catholics condemning the Jews. (Well, some traditional Catholics refuse to obey the pope and still insist on hating the Jews)

Pope John Paul II was the only man who united the world leaders at his burial. Iran and Iraqi leaders were sitting side by side, even though they were at war at that time. But they had to go there to pay their last respects to this holy man.

Pope John Paul II has truly become an inspiration through his courage and perseverance. The faith he showed when he led the Church was undoubtedly alive.

To be honest, I myself have a lot of doubts about my faith, but seeing him with steadfast belief and hope made me want to see the God he sees. He truly is an inspiration. An example to all, a saint through and through. I am happy to have lived at the time of his Papacy! I caught a glimpse of what a true Catholic should be!

True, priests, bishops and some of the Catholic officials have tarnished the reputation of the Universal Church with scandals and abuses that made the lay people leave the fold, but they are not the Church. There are people who are determined to make things right. Pope John Paul II, you're a hero! Reflecting Christ in this time of confusion.

May the Church produce more people like him!

Cool! A role model!

Happy Easter - Thoughts on my Birthday Contemplation

It was by choice that I declined two invites to go out of town for the Holy week. Not that I am the best in everything or that my choices are far more grand than others. It's just that I knew what I needed in my life right now... I need to meditate.

Holy week for me is an exciting event wherein I could have a chance to contemplate on the God who continually reach out to me amidst the chaotic world and confusing variety of philosophies and pseudo-theologies. (Being born in a family with lots of books, I tend to read a lot)

Those who knew me (or rather thought they knew me) decided that I needed this or that in order for me to be happy. Suggestions from different people came pouring in, from people who are sincere in their efforts to guide me to 'happiness'. At times, I believe them, but at the back of my mind, I was restless. There was a nagging feeling that cannot be silenced.

I came to realize in the silence of the walls of the Church and the guidance of the recollections and retreats that I attended, that I find comfort and clarity of my purpose when I immerse myself to the study of God who I believe made every cells in my body function as He planned it in the greater scheme of things. Only then have I come to catch a glimpse of pure happiness that is untarnished and not fleeting as some temporary joys the secular world offers.

I dare say, my choices may not be appealing to all, but it is the best thing that ever happened to me. I wanted to be at the forefront alongside the people who have fought the good fight and died for what they believe was right. Holy week for me is a time to recharge my soul in union with my Creator.

I am not a fan of short term happiness, and I am not afraid to be labeled as weird and odd just because I refused to follow what most people do. For me, happiness is the feeling of an undying hope, and the knowledge that you are alive for a reason much nobler than what mere people decide you to be.

It is easy to judge others as inferior when they do not concede to what we believe in, but for me, the true measure of joy is what good it does to one's soul. I would rather die looking for the eternal bliss, than lose myself to temporal joys which are often times meaningless in years to come.

I look up to great people who already found inner peace and make them my guide in determining my decisions, making them my role models. I try to emulate their discipline and adapt it in my life.

On some occasions, some people belittle me and think they are much more accomplished because they experienced a lot of "fun" and advised me to do the same. I had detours in my life, and I must admit that the devil may care attitude of the youths give us lessons as we go through the course of life, but I don't believe in being stagnant and not moving on from mediocrity. I believe that until you fulfill what you have come to accomplish in this world, you cannot be truly happy. You also outgrow these 'joys' and trying to bring back its glory is futile.

The pursuit of meaningless happiness in repetition doesn't make any sense at all. Detours are only a waste of time when you already know what you want out of life. Make one mistake and take the lessons you need in order to do better next time. Make progress, that is the only way to be able to reach happiness in its totality. Get out of your comfort zone if you must, even when it means being laughed at for not joining the pack.

Believe in your path for you are the only one who knows where you can truly be happy... there's no one who can hinder your progress to greatness but only you. People and unfortunate circumstances cannot do anything as long as you refuse to let go of your goals and dreams. Be brave amidst endless mockeries and close your ears to the endless discouragements people throw at you.

Turn the tables with your perseverance until your stubbornness prove that they were wrong about you. Lead them with your great example, refuse to allow them to put out your fire. And make this world a better place to live in. Fight for your dreams... life is short, and there's only one chance for all of us to prove ourselves. Cut yourself out from the rest. :)

Face the world with a new fuel of determination! Fight a good fight! Shine your Light! Happy Easter to all! ^_^

A learned a Great Deal in My Cathoic Faith this Holy Week

In my years of existence and of being a member of the Catholic Faith since birth, this was the first time I heard about the truth as to why Christ had to die on the cross for the sins of mankind.

For so long, I thought that He died on the cross to redeem us, by shedding his blood in order to expiate and placate the justice that God thirsts for.. But this isn't what redemption is all about!

Theologians have twisted this story over the years... it was all a mistake taught by the bishops and priests and so called theologians.... but never the Pope!

Cardinal Ratzinger, now Pope Benedict XVI pointed out that this theory, that God needed His Son's blood in order to redeem us, that only the Person of equal rights and stature has the right to redeem us is all a misunderstanding and it came from mankind's mis-representation of salvation of mankind which they based on the feudal system... wherein the offended party could only be appeased if the offensive party shed blood of a person of the same noble birth! It is in direct contradiction to the parable of the Prodigal Son wherein the father loves his son and welcomed him home unconditionally.



Just as Hell wasn't made by God to punish the demons who betrayed Him (For they themselves made hell because they cannot live in a place that God made because they hated God and everything that God created.), so the story of redemption was twisted!

According to the original doctrines of the Church, Jesus came here not to appease the father with His shedding of blood, but to show God's love for us. He sent His only begotten Son to bridge His love to us, with Jesus becoming man and telling the people about God's love. The people, who are full of violence and hatred were anxious to inflict Jesus with sufferings. Thus, Jesus, knowing this, underwent the suffering till the end, till man was satisfied. He went through it all without complaining so that He could send the message that God loves mankind, contrary to the lies that the devil feeds them. And by the power of His infinite mercy, he won man over... not all, but at least there were those who responded to His sufferings and understood why He came to Earth.

Only Christianity have a God like this... a loving God who is willing to die for His people. Such a good story. It's hard to imagine that for so long, I knew an angry and vengeful God. Clearly, what the media feed us are all distorted truths!

I am lucky to have found Christ like this! Lucky to be in a 3-day recollection of knowing Christ this holy week... I wouldn't exchange this time with Him for anything! :)

I sometimes learn about attitude towards life in my favorite cartoon shows ^_^

Yeah, I have a confession to make... and it's kinda funny but I think it's not a crime to share. I was lately becoming bummed out because I felt that my progress in all my undertakings were really slow.
I was really uninspired lately, talk about grown up stuffs people ask me to face... (It is boring really... and it's no fun!) And at times like these I look outside my window and reminisce about my old days.... yeah, back when I was a healthy dreamer.



I dream a lot, really. Thank goodness for that... and because I used to watch a lot of cartoons where tha main characters are driven towards success, I picked some of the champion's mindset. Yes, you won't believe it, but you really can get a lot of a leader's mindset in quality animes. And just by watching, I slowly remembered what kind of a person I was---- Dreamer and Driven.


As of now, I picked up Takehito Inoue's Slam Dunk. It is a very good anime. I was really inspired to be myself and be disciplined as I watched the main characters practice more and more each day to surpass their old selves. Animes like these are really good... if only the Philippine society is like this, then everything will be cool--- i mean if they only start putting an end to making excuses and blaming other people why they are not progressing.

I used to watch this in college for entertainment's sake, it was a  rerun in the local network for the nth time. It's a really funny series and I almost fell on the floor when I was able to watch it in dubbed Tagalog... the dubbers' ad lib were hilarious and used languages that the ordinary Filipinos use in everyday life... it's really worth re-watching a thousand times! I still love it after more than a decade of its existence.

Takehiko is a guy full of wisdom to create such a story, strong and deep words overflow as I watch slam dunk... It deals with the slices of life, on how to live up to the challenge of life and be the best a person can be. Slam Dunk, you made my day. Now, Takehiko Inoue is now one of those people who inspire me... great story.... the best I've seen in my life. “Play hard so you will have no regrets” - Kaede Rukawa- Slam Dunk (Takehiko Inoue)

Devastation in Japan

A few days ago, an earthquake took place at 8.9 magnitude in Japan. It was devastating, and a very sad event. The country is the world's most advanced in technology, but lo and behold, they cannot do anything against the natural disasters.

At times like these, I am left to wonder about life and how fleeting it is. Those who died in the calamity are not the most evil people in the world, the Japanese people are generally honest and respectable people if I may say so, yet their lives were taken away just like that.

Perhaps, this is a chance for all the people in the world to reflect on their lives, and realize, that when death comes, you come to realize that riches will make no sense at all when your life is suddenly taken away. (I of course am referring to corrupt people who amass wealth unlawfully)... This may come off as a little preachy I know, but just think about it.

Man can never control his life after all...

As for Japan, it's scary. But I believe in their goodness, and their strong bond with each other as a community. They could go through it. God bless them!

Flipped: Finding more about someone is like finding a buried treasure

To begin with, I was never fond of love stories... EVER.... but this is an exception! I loved the movie that it made my heart Flipped! It's nostalgic and I kind of missed seeing people as sensitive to other people's feelings as the people here in the story...
Talk about something everyone has lost nowadays. I think people who are selfish needed to learn so many things from this movie. Love is not a 5 minute talk or a text message affair....


To learn how to love a person, after getting to know who they really are is supposed to be what love really is... It tramples the culture of touch and go love affair, objectifying people and not loving them as a person.
Someday, when I get to find someone I could give my devotion to.... I hope he will do something grand for me, like planting a sycamore tree for me too, i mean who will be thoughtful enough to look into my innermost thoughts and try to make me smile ^__^...

I do like someone who'd make the effort for me... After all, I do believe that what we give, will always come back to you. So I promise to give love whatever the cost! :D

To date, I only meet guys who fan their egos when they try to win me over. I don't like that... I want to be with someone who drink life in... someone who doesn't need other people to validate them. Someone who embraces life because he relishes every moment.... that kind of enthusiasm somehow draws me in. Too bad, most people I meet nowadays are all pretentious... I don't know. I want to preserve my authenticity... and I hope I'll find someone who's equally real


Juli Baker is definitely the girl who has substance. The kind of girl foolish guys overlook in favor of girls who are all show and has no substance. She is different because although she is obsessed with Bryce, the boy with those dazzling eyes, she still had her individuality intact.

She is a real person. Someone who was never pretentious. She had put Bryce on a pedestal, pursuing what was not at all there, in the end, the pursuit somehow started to lose its value, and the pursuer was pursued.


Although she was not at first valued for who she is by other people, her self respect and reason won him over.

She is unique and real, and not all girls have that strength of character and brilliance that Juli Baker showed. She maintained her individuality. Her zest and enthusiasm for life was what helped her to recognize people for who they were. She was raised in a loving family, that is why she too could only give what was given her. Unfortunately, not all people could appreciate it for they were all pretentious and materialistic.

Brilliant acting of the two stars who played Juli and Bryce... I think they were soooo right for their parts. Too bad this movie didn't come out in theaters. I give it 5 stars! :D

Far Away

Wherever I go
Far away and anywhere
Time after time you always shine
Through dark of night calling after me

And wherever I climb
Far away and anywhere
You raise me high beyond the sky
Through stormy night lifting me above

No need to Rush

No need to rush things. What is most needed now is to focus on what is important. Time is of essence, that is why there is no time for mediocrity.

Most of the time I am faced with a dilemma of compromising my principles just so I could have fleeting gratification.... but good thing, my sanity got the better of me.

A person's principle is what he acquired over the years of his existence on Earth, what determines who he is are the principles and beliefs he retained in his journey. The decision making is quite crucial, and it tells a lot about a person about his choices. I am happy, that although my principles are a little bit outdated, I am happy to keep my stand. People can laugh at me for being a little old-fashioned, but this is me. What's important is that I could look at the mirror with a clear conscience.

I can cry about it, but in the end, I am still happy because I stood for what is right. I love my life, and I do hope I am strong enough to withstand any storm and trials that will come my way... no compromising of my principles! Go Go Go!

Work on your Salvation with Fear and Trembling...

Ephesians 6:11-17

11 Put on the armor of God so that you may be able to stand firm against the tactics of the devil.12For our struggle is not with flesh and blood but with the principalities, with the powers, with the world rulers of this present darkness, with the evil spirits in the heavens.13 Therefore, put on the armor of God, that you may be able to resist on the evil day and, having done everything, to hold your ground.14 So stand fast with your loins girded in truth, clothed with righteousness as a breastplate,15 and your feet shod in readiness for the gospel of peace. 16 In all circumstances, hold faith as a shield, to quench all (the) flaming arrows of the evil one.17 And take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.


Just saw the movie THE RITE tonight.
It was an Exorcism story.... I was taken aback and was deeply disturbed. I think I have encountered a situation like that. When I was a child, I didn't know better. Perhaps it was our customary recitation of the Holy Rosary that led us to the path to Light... way back, we were not fully aware of the troubles that we were in. We had spiritual warfare and belief in God was so so-so.

I still had mixed emotions as I watched the film, but deep down, I know my spiritual journey is different from a lot of people. I couldn't even begin the story on how i believe what I believe now. DEVILS do Exist, and so does God.

In the movie, the charm worn by the possessed victims played a vital role. It was repeatedly stressed throughout the movie. I think they forgot to explain why they kept on highlighting the charm. The charm is used most of the time for occult practices, and anyone who uses it will be susceptible to demonic possessions. So the next time people buy things, they have to know its origin to make sure it wasn't used for any kind of occult practices.

The Devil is cunning.... they fool people into not believing them so that it would be easy for them to go around playing with people.

I don't know if I am biased... I just want to be vigilant for my own sake. As I am writing this, I am fully aware of my role as a person who understand what it means to be a Catholic. And with that, I think I will live as one... I hope I can make my God proud of me, as I once said strongly in my dream. Such bold words... I can't forget it. I hope I have the will and the capacity to live it through.

From this point on, the amazing journey begins.... Help me God!

Be A Voice in the Society

"Be A voice in the Society"

That's what the homily was about when I attended the first Friday Mass this February 4, 2011.

Another sign for me.... gosh I really needed to execute my task already. I admit I am a little scared and a little lost... but I will be guided accordingly.

God help me! This is it. The defining moments of my life!

BRING IT ON!!! ^____________^

Make the World Better! :)

Because he himself was tested through what he suffered, he is able to help those who are being tested. – Hebrews 2:18

Yeah, cheesy as it may sound, but I am positive to want to make this world a better place to live in. I don't know, I just feel so energized at the thought of making people feel better.... especially the oppressed.

I have been through a lot of my own difficulties of my own in life, and seeing other people go through difficult times really troubles me.

I guess this is what people call "Superhero COMPLEX?" :D....
I admit, I can't do everything... but I just can't let things stay miserable when it's in my power to help. The downside there though, is when I encounter people who just wanted to take advantage of my help... screw them! I wanna give a good example... but they're just cheapos.. so I try not to associate with the likes of them.

Anyhow, let's make this world a whole lot better... be cool and help others be cool and as awesome as we are :D

On my Forkroad: I have decided which way to go...

Really, after months of debate and inner struggle, I finally made a decision. I am happy and contented.
For now, I need to rest my mind and do everything I have in my power to focus all my attention on my present situation. I smile even though I have no certainty where I am heading. All I needed is to have faith in myself, and everything will be okay. Soon, opportunities will open to welcome me, and with that in mind, I have no need to be worried. I am casting all my cares away, as for now, I need to rediscover my self, and from nothing again, I will build all the things I want to do and rediscover my passions and talents. I don't have anything in my name ... all I have is this determination and honesty to myself. What's important is that I know for now that I am not easily vacuumed and fashioned by other people's interpretation of who I am.




The worst thing a person could do to himself, is to conform to other people's mediocre ideas of him... hindering him from evolving to be himself in all his entirety.... it is a sorry sight if that happens. Because he/she can never be happy, conforming to other people's idea of who he is; which is vague and incomplete.

To shine as your best is something you owe to yourself. Never let other people influence you. Learn to discern who you really are, only YOU can pin down what works best for you.

Good days... I welcome you! ^__^

Refocusing my Dreams, to make it into a Reality

A few more days from now, and I am on my way towards my goals. I know that I will lose a lot of things, i.e., Ripened friendships, familiar atmosphere, consistent source of money, but oddly, I am perfectly fine with it. Not that they lost their value, but it just didn't fit in my plans anymore.

I overstayed, I think. Because I had been unhappy for months now, doing everything like a robot would. And I fell into a trap of seeking validation of my work from other people...

I got tired of those empty pursuits of praises from people. I got some, but lost some. To seek validation from others is indeed addictive, and I fell into a trap of spreading myself too thin, doing a lot of tricks just to get attention... but in the long run, it lacks satisfaction. The false luster it promised waned as the time passed me by.

Reflecting on my life as I was wont to do at intervals when I am alone with myself, I realized to my great surprise, that I'm the only one I needed to believe in.

I suffered for months now. I did function, doing what others wanted, but inside, I was struggling. They applauded me, yet why wasn't I happy? Then it dawned on me, I wasn't carrying out my passion, my identity... I let other people take me according to their whims... that I eventually lost myself on the way. I lost my sense of identity because of my folly.

My stupidity eventually took its toll. I have produced mediocrity... I wasn't fooling anyone anymore. My works have no enthusiasm and lacked the heart it needed to stand and speak for itself. I was in turmoil... I knew I needed to let go... but I continued on... stubbornly, until I couldn't look at my works anymore. I was repulsed by it.

That's why I needed to let go... and when I finally gave in to the idea, a sense of peace gradually took over me. I discovered that in order to show people that individual side of you, you mustn't be too competitive of other people... look inside you, and it's okay to fail. I discovered that there was never a competition with other people because I am a unique individual. The only person I should try to please is myself and make my God proud of me.

Little by little, my enthusiasm is already coming back to me... it's gonna be a good life! ^___^
I owe it to myself and to others, to be my very best, to be able to function well in society by being myself! It's good to know that I am important in this world, just as I am... :D

Voice from Oblivion

So all of these faces
And brand new places
And a fresh start to my life
And now I know where I wanna go
I'm gonna make sure I do it just right
Cause if I dont I know things wont feel right



I am excited to start on this project... someday, I will be having a voice, enough to be heard. I will be the voice of the ones whose cries were silenced, by no less than their own mothers who should be the ones to protect them and love them. I feel so much love for these little ones, and I cry for their stifled cries. May their cry for justice reach the hearts of the people...and may they stop the abuse and murder for the little ones.

There are 3 kinds of people in this world. Those that make things happen. Those that watch things happen, and those that say: 'what happened?!' :)

Sports personalities -- A pleasant surprise in the Catholic Priesthood today!

Fatherhood and being married to the church was the calling of these popular, good-looking athletes who, at the peak of their talents, have decided to enter the seminary. Priestly calling is not a job, but a calling and a privilege given by God. To be called to this service is a gift. I am still at loss for words as I read about these amazing people... who had fame, girls, image, looks.... they had everything, but they were humble enough to strip themselves of the glories of the world, and embrace the life with God.

Grant Desme

Joseph Freedy

I think they're amazing. Masculinity is so much distorted nowadays. The media feeds the people with trash... that to be a true alpha male, is to get the girls, be rich, and be famous... Well, these people knew that life... and they found out that it's not the peak of happiness!

The Foolish traveler - - my story

Have you ever read the story of the foolish traveler that I posted here months ago? Well, it's a very good story. Click here to read it.

He's foolish alright, but he was kind. And he was happy because he had no malice in his body. He doesn't care what he loses. He wants to see people happy.

Well, I remembered the tale because I used the title. Well, all of us are travelers here on Earth... we journey until we find our place in this world. I am starting a new chapter of my life. New job, new dreams to weave, new path to follow... My dreams are the only fuel that keeps me going. :)

From ground zero, I need to rehash my life. Clear my head of all the unnecessary things that bother me. I am very excited. I can see the future ahead of me is so bright. I will of course find some hurdles along the way, but I can manage... for now, move on. It doesn't matter how little my steps will be, what's important is that I have decided to have change in my life.

It's really odd that I have a very strong sense of purpose... My path is a foolish path and risky, but what are dreamers for if not being crazy and taking risks? The reason why they are called dreamers is because they dare to do the impossible... make the invisible visible... enough said... :D

Ending Chapters

from Paolo Coehlo's blog

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened.

You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister.
Everyone is finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home.

Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them.

Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.

Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.”

Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need.
This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life.

Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2010 Last Day of the year

As the year is on the verge of its end, I couldn't help but feel a little flabbergasted. Everything happened so fast... opportunities came, chances I took, and chances I let slip by. I got to say, a lot of things made me smile.... something great has happened to me and I do hope that it will be like this in the coming year.

I stop and reflect on my life every now and then. And I dare say, I have come a long long way. Having my own dreams and goals to fulfill... I am even envious of my future self... the present me is jealous of who I will be in the future... (If there's such a thing! Hahaha) Trials will come, but I can manage... how else could I have survived the past if I am not a strong person?

I will list down my new year's resolutions. And I will arm myself with lots of prayers, courage, and hope. I hope to stay more focused and do my very best this time :)

All in all, I can say that the best was saved for last. ^__^ so many things have happened to me in the latter part of the year... 2010 was awesome. I have matured emotionally, and I can say I learned to understand people a little better. It's true that I have come to read about people in Dostoevsky's works, but to know about people first hand is a totally different thing. Anyhow... one thing I learned is that I should have respect for people, and leave the unnecessary people behind, those who just use people and doesn't even know how to utter a thank you. Surprise, there were a lot of people like that! :O... whatever, bygones!

It's time to kick some ass! I have been so passive, now it's time to be aggressive. I will take control of my destiny... and leave the people who can't keep up with my pace. That's the way things are. Let's have a toast... 2011! Here we go... a brighter future because I refuse to look at the bleak side of life. I deserve more than what I used to get. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeahhhhhhhhhhh! ^__^

Oblivion

As the year is coming to a close, I have been confronted with a scary thought. I have been very busy with getting ready for my new year resolutions and new plans for my life ahead. And while I was at it, I was able to experience for a moment, the frightening feeling of being in oblivion.

People come and go, and forget you altogether. I never feared to be forgotten, not by anyone because it was usually me who leave people behind. But now, I am feeling a little terrified.

I can't help but think of the babies who were neglected by their parents. Is this what to be in oblivion is all about? To be treated as if you never existed? To have no voice, no presence, no opinions.... it's rather sad. VERY SAD. When I think of how these little ones get abused, murdered, and maltreated, I get really angry. I am for the human dignity.
For further knowledge about the importance of life, this may be a useful read:

HUMANAE VITAE

By the way, I have a new toy... he will grace my photography soon someday. He is King, my sister's toy poodle! It's a gift for her... I wasn't fond of dogs... but he's so cute and adorable... ^__^

Urgency of the Call

It's time for a new beginning.

I have been so sure now of my calling, and time is ripe. If I let my chance slip through my fingers, then I know I will regret it for the rest of my life.
I must understand, that my life is not for me alone. I have a responsibility to fulfill, that is why my heart's desire is deeply instilled in my whole being.

I heard some words of wisdom today, and it hit me again, "The reason for Christmas, is to give people hope. God works, even when it seemed like nothing is going on and He seemed silent. But still He works even when you could not perceive it. He is faithful, even when things don't go according to your expectations. You may not understand, but He has plans far greater than what your limited mind can conceive."

Thus I put my tomorrows in God's hand. It's an exciting one really. A friend of mine also told me. That when he empties himself from the concerns of the world, he finds himself being provided for by the God he believes in, that never in his life did God abandon him. And that gave me hope! Thanks to him, I could have a talk about spiritual matters.

I also watched a movie about the life of Don Bosco. I live near the Don Bosco parish and his relic came to visit the church.

In his youth, he said "There's limited time for people. If God asks you to do something, have a sense of urgency, for this may be the time God needs you to fulfill it. For tomorrow, you might die, or that will may no longer be as strong. So when you are called, do it outright"



So many inspiring thoughts. I just know. Everything that is being said, I must listen to it... for it is a map, a clue of my life. :)

Scared of my weakness, but I have a God I could depend on... move forward.Tomorrow is a great day. :)