Valentine's Day huh?

Well, first and foremost, Happy Heart's Day... or Valentine's day rather... if I say that it's a "hearts" day, I will begin thinking about "Heart awareness" or something like "Cancer awareness" day... (sigh) rubbish right? Anyways... When was it that we started celebrating this day? Definitely in my childhood years, since we were given a task by teachers. A project wherein we make cards for parents on valentine's day. After that, I never observed it... only now because a have so many clients for this season. :D

I went through life happy, carefree, and dreamt a lot of dreams. But this time, what is valentine's day to me now? I guess now, it calls to mind a discussion I had with my sister. I like superheroes...and yes... I do have a hero complex. I side with the bullied people in class because I don't like injustice to happen...not when I'm around!!! No sir! Not because my parents taught me that, I saw it on tv! I was a loner, but when people are bullied, I side with them (and also I used to be the class president so they listen to what I say). But I'm cool being alone... I love solitude. Solitude is described as being happy all by yourself. While loneliness is a feeling of needing other people's company just so you could feel complete...or something like that.

And so, the discussion I had was... I told my sister that I don't think I will ever look at someone to complete me. As long as I could help people and make them happy, I'm fine with that, not even waiting for any rewards... but my sister asked me that what if that person needs ME? And I'm the only one who'd make him happy, then what?... that stopped me... is it possible that someone could feel that about another human being? Then it dawned on me... THAT is one difficult question. How can I commit to that request? How can I function as some sort of a superhero if I commit myself to just one? (After all, in movies, heroes face this challenge... they are always alone... but it's not intentional on my part... I'd rather be alone. I think no one could understand me really... thus I am comfortable on my own.) Am I THAT cold-hearted? I saw a lot of shows where Love is the main ingredient... but in truth, it never hit me that I could one day have it happen to me... so now... I am curious. What exactly is it to need someone? To have that person become your world...make the world a better place for them. Gosh, all my feelings I guess are locked inside the deepest recesses of my soul... it's so new to me. I'm in nursery in this topic. I never listened to the grown ups... nor did I read romance novels... and I rarely watch love stories... so I am truly ignorant...

And so... why did I write this on Valentine's Day??? Well, this is a tribute to my clients who come to me in numbers... regardless of the price or cost, as long as they could give something to that special SOMEONE. I love Valentine's Day for giving me extra income... but aside from that... behind that genuine happiness in my clients' eyes... I am curious to know. Maybe... just maybe, I would one day learn what it's all about. Perhaps, I will be happy too, and give special gifts only for him. For now, I still hold the lock and key of my heart :P

CHEERS to those who know why Valentine's day is observed. I am happy... though it's a world that is unfamiliar to me... I kind of like it :)