Riches and Success are two different things!

I don't want this site to be flooded with angst and rantings because I am hoping that I will get inspired everytime I visit here... but I was of course appalled and deeply mortified upon realizing that people saw me as someone who is assiduously accepting art commissions just for money. I was deeply offended and gravely disappointed that people had to think very ill of me. Money and Success for me are two different things! Money is easy to acquire... but success is elusive to those who are not keen in looking for it. Success requires a lot of effort...and this is what I wanted. I want to have character, because I am not a shallow person!

I know that I am a starter in the fields I wanted to trek... but the fact that people offer to pay for my service is an evident respect they have for my talent. I accept payments because that is a symbol that I am earning it because I did well. I do know that people are ready to accuse people of bad things... but I can't deny that they have somehow hurt my reputation. It is true, I am young but it is not a joke when I say that I have trained well, weathered the storms of difficulties to be where I am now, but I am determined to walk towards my goals. I want to reach my full potential, and getting rich on the way is just a bonus.

I don't need money, of this I am certain. What I needed is a sense of achievement. Money for me is just a medium to buy the things I needed in order for me to enhance my crafts. But if it's just plain riches I wanted.... then I will just have to wait for it.

I know I will laugh about this in the future... as all the successful people in the world have underwent this kind of treatment... I will just have to comfort myself with that. There's a saying that people throw stones at a fruitful tree.... they might be seeing things in me...right? I am still but a tender soul... ready to fall apart at some slight sign of discouragement. I just hope that someday, I will be strong enough not to mind these detractors. I will just try to cheer myself up...

On a different and definitely lighter note: Evgeny Plushenko! I <3 you very much.... he inspires me soooo! ^__^