Ending Chapters

from Paolo Coehlo's blog

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened.

You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister.
Everyone is finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home.

Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them.

Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.

Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.”

Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need.
This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life.

Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2010 Last Day of the year

As the year is on the verge of its end, I couldn't help but feel a little flabbergasted. Everything happened so fast... opportunities came, chances I took, and chances I let slip by. I got to say, a lot of things made me smile.... something great has happened to me and I do hope that it will be like this in the coming year.

I stop and reflect on my life every now and then. And I dare say, I have come a long long way. Having my own dreams and goals to fulfill... I am even envious of my future self... the present me is jealous of who I will be in the future... (If there's such a thing! Hahaha) Trials will come, but I can manage... how else could I have survived the past if I am not a strong person?

I will list down my new year's resolutions. And I will arm myself with lots of prayers, courage, and hope. I hope to stay more focused and do my very best this time :)

All in all, I can say that the best was saved for last. ^__^ so many things have happened to me in the latter part of the year... 2010 was awesome. I have matured emotionally, and I can say I learned to understand people a little better. It's true that I have come to read about people in Dostoevsky's works, but to know about people first hand is a totally different thing. Anyhow... one thing I learned is that I should have respect for people, and leave the unnecessary people behind, those who just use people and doesn't even know how to utter a thank you. Surprise, there were a lot of people like that! :O... whatever, bygones!

It's time to kick some ass! I have been so passive, now it's time to be aggressive. I will take control of my destiny... and leave the people who can't keep up with my pace. That's the way things are. Let's have a toast... 2011! Here we go... a brighter future because I refuse to look at the bleak side of life. I deserve more than what I used to get. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeahhhhhhhhhhh! ^__^

Oblivion

As the year is coming to a close, I have been confronted with a scary thought. I have been very busy with getting ready for my new year resolutions and new plans for my life ahead. And while I was at it, I was able to experience for a moment, the frightening feeling of being in oblivion.

People come and go, and forget you altogether. I never feared to be forgotten, not by anyone because it was usually me who leave people behind. But now, I am feeling a little terrified.

I can't help but think of the babies who were neglected by their parents. Is this what to be in oblivion is all about? To be treated as if you never existed? To have no voice, no presence, no opinions.... it's rather sad. VERY SAD. When I think of how these little ones get abused, murdered, and maltreated, I get really angry. I am for the human dignity.
For further knowledge about the importance of life, this may be a useful read:

HUMANAE VITAE

By the way, I have a new toy... he will grace my photography soon someday. He is King, my sister's toy poodle! It's a gift for her... I wasn't fond of dogs... but he's so cute and adorable... ^__^

Urgency of the Call

It's time for a new beginning.

I have been so sure now of my calling, and time is ripe. If I let my chance slip through my fingers, then I know I will regret it for the rest of my life.
I must understand, that my life is not for me alone. I have a responsibility to fulfill, that is why my heart's desire is deeply instilled in my whole being.

I heard some words of wisdom today, and it hit me again, "The reason for Christmas, is to give people hope. God works, even when it seemed like nothing is going on and He seemed silent. But still He works even when you could not perceive it. He is faithful, even when things don't go according to your expectations. You may not understand, but He has plans far greater than what your limited mind can conceive."

Thus I put my tomorrows in God's hand. It's an exciting one really. A friend of mine also told me. That when he empties himself from the concerns of the world, he finds himself being provided for by the God he believes in, that never in his life did God abandon him. And that gave me hope! Thanks to him, I could have a talk about spiritual matters.

I also watched a movie about the life of Don Bosco. I live near the Don Bosco parish and his relic came to visit the church.

In his youth, he said "There's limited time for people. If God asks you to do something, have a sense of urgency, for this may be the time God needs you to fulfill it. For tomorrow, you might die, or that will may no longer be as strong. So when you are called, do it outright"



So many inspiring thoughts. I just know. Everything that is being said, I must listen to it... for it is a map, a clue of my life. :)

Scared of my weakness, but I have a God I could depend on... move forward.Tomorrow is a great day. :)

Words of encouragement

As I stand near the threshold of a new beginning, I have been hearing a lot of positive and encouraging words lately. And I need them very much.
In today's gospel, these words reverberated in my mind: "God never lets His people down" and went on citing examples of God's faithfulness to His people.
Yesterday's gospel talked about Hannah's granted prayer, to have a child (Note: I am not praying for that, but in olden times, children were seen as a blessing. And so when I said Hannah's prayer for a child was answered, it meant in generalization of God's different forms of blessings.) God works in mysterious ways, and He never abandons His people. May they believe or not, He continues to provide. People do not feel this because they believe that God is non existent. It's rather sad... on my part, I cannot judge the people who do not believe. It's the way they were able to see their situations, and there's nothing I can do about it.

I on the other hand, cannot go on living in the belief that God never existed. He was with me during those trying times. I have seen the miracles that manifested in my life, that is why, everyday, there's a reason for me to be excited, always on the lookout at what God has in store for me. :)

That's why, time and again, since it's my Creator who got my back, I can safely say: "SMILE, LIFE IS FULL OF PLEASANT SURPRISES!"

Looking back, my years in this world is really full of blessings. I could only smile and be thankful. True, I do not have the best things in life, but I have the BEST source of inspiration... my God, my Creator, my #1 fan! May all my dreams come true,... the dreams that God instilled in me... :)

Your ways, O LORD, make known to me; teach me your paths, 5 guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my savior. (R) 8 Good and upright is the LORD; thus he shows sinners the way. 9 He guides the humble to justice, he teaches the humble his way. (R) 10 All the paths of the LORD are kindness and constancy toward those who keep his covenant and his decrees. 14 The friendship of the LORD is with those who fear him, and his covenant, for their instruction.

I chose to be hopeful!

People call me crazy or so old fashioned... hmmm I can't help it if they think of me as such. I know that believing in something you didn't see for yourself is kind of illogical, but I'd rather believe in something that will strengthen my hope.

In relation to this, I remembered an episode I liked. The Hikaru no Go episode where Sai (the master of Go who is a ghost) took over Hikaru's messed up game. He knew he was falling apart, and the only way he could win is to let Sai takeover. The dialogue hit me because many times in my life, I mess up with things, and then when I feel that I am already hopeless, I cry and become so frustrated knowing that I could never do it right. And it feels good to have someone take over your messed up world, and knowing He will make everything right. I have hope in my future, for I chose God to takeover my life. Because without Him, I am hopeless...

These are the things I learn in Hikaru no Go, and come to think of it, it's not far from my reality...

I am happy...because I have hope. :)

Haze is now at a tough spot. With 1-1 it is up to Hikaru to win and make Haze advance to the finals. Kaga tells Hikaru to play seriously and show them his true strength. He tells Hikaru that if Haze looses than their Go Club will be no more. Hikaru looks at the board and begins to shed some tears. He asks Sai to finish the game because he knows that deep down he cannot win. Sai realizes how frustrating it is for Hikaru being unable to win with his own strength. But Sai assures Hikaru that they will win. Sure enough, Haze advances to the finals 2 –1.

Good old days!

I spend my time reading nowadays (While I do my side jobs that is!)... I need to refresh all the things I learned when I was young. After a lot of thought, I realized that I have buried my old self through the years. My old self wasn't at all bad. True, I was a loner, but now that I have established communication with real people, I found out that I need the knowledge I used to have when I was my old self to be effective in socializing, thus I returned to reading...

I used to be happy years back... but now, I realized, that having people around me wasn't at all bad. True, there are times when I badly needed to be alone to be able to reflect on things, I began to appreciate the people around me. Through them I was able to see things I couldn't see if I was alone. It is true indeed, God sends the right people your way to teach you about life.


Keep it coming. 2011 will be my turning point! :)
CCO - Visualizing, Diana ^_^

CBCP Year of the Youths started now. December 16, 2010.

This is indeed a good year for me. It was declared a year of the youths. Thus, I know it will be the start of my good life too! ^_^. It gets exciting everyday... it may not be always about happy times, but I know I have help whenever I need it.

I want to take over the world... really. I know it will take a lot than a small amount of effort, but I have to decide NOW. It's now or never!!! I don't want to let the world pass me by... and besides, I have a task to fulfill.

There's a reason why I am in THIS family.... and for that reason, I need to be my best. I need to uphold my family name because our lives are intertwined with a lot of tasks that needed to be done to help the world. I have to be a role model to the youth, thus I refrain from doing anything against my principles. I am a devout Catholic.... but let me correct any prejudgments that may occur right away after reading that statement. I assure you that my faith underwent a lot of tumultuous doubts and arguments to my logical side before I succumbed to it finally. I am not saying it is an end all and be all, all I'm saying is that being a Catholic is not at all bad, rigid yes, but can be useful when you want to be someone who wants to be honestly connected to God. I want to be an encouragement to others... or rather, I need to be. I wasn't born here to waste that privilege.

It's hard to do my task, but with God's help, I know I can....why, He's my number one Fan! He made me to be me....He knows every cell in my body, and how I should function... and the desire in my heart is the manual for me to function. I need to maximize my usage to its full potential, so that I could face Him at the end of my days, proud and happy.

I have to be ready to face sadness and misunderstanding. I have to be strong... I want to be bold despite the wounds that my journey might inflict on me. I have to be always in high hopes, and high spirits, knowing that God is always at my side, and that HE WILL NEVER ABANDON ME...

I have been so faithful to my God, because all through my formative years, I have experienced a lot of faithfulness on His part. He worked in ways I could not imagine. Gave me big surprises that I could never have conceived in my head. It's a very exciting world for me really... but somehow I get all anxious because I look at my situations in life. I doubt Him, His promises, His faithfulness...

One significant verse that held true in my life was when His words hit me... "I will repay you for the lost years", and it took place in my life. True to His words, he took over and tidied the circumstances for me to walk on. He smoothens the road on which I pass, and if ever I walk in uncertainties, I know He takes me by the hand and take me to a wonderful place.

I want to believe all the time, and tell the world at the top of my lungs about God's goodness, but most of the time, I am gripped with fear. But looking back, and listing all the wonderful gifts God has given me, I know I am in good hands. I shall want nothing. I am teary eyed each time I remember all the wonderful gifts God has given me. And just being with God and recognizing it as the truest gift in this world is also a gift from Him. I love being there with Him...in His presence... Just basking in His holiness, I feel so happy and serene.

It is indeed a good life!

One piece of the puzzle... I think I found it...

Hmmm, I guess I can call myself lucky today because I have been having a very anxious day last Saturday and now I got a message that somehow eased my troubled mind. Having hesitations on my decision... I really have a big decision to make and it really required a leap of faith!

But I originally knew I need to make this turning point in my life. I've reached the end of this chapter, and there's no way I'm having cold feet now. I have been bombarded with a lot of positive messages coming out of the blue lately and I do believe that it's nothing coincidental. I probably need a huge amount of belief for the great self-doubt that lies ahead (ulk). I need to believe in myself more than anything...

Yesterday, when I opened my email... I was pleasantly surprised and got scared at the same time because of how the message I read in my email hit me directly. It was a very clear message and I was left without a doubt what I'm supposed to do. One piece of a puzzle in my life, of what I need to accomplish. In my limited mind, I allowed logic and practicality to grip me, but I can't allow that anymore. I have been staying too long in this mediocrity... I have to make a BIG difference now.

Hang in there... double time... and I know I am safe, I need not be afraid... :) . . . :D . . . :))... ^___________^... The realization of one's dream, lies in the hand of those who are brave enough to make it happen! Don't ever forget that!

A very direct approach

Yesterday I was disrupted. Taken away from my peaceful mindset. But I got the message that was clear and direct... I need to do what I had to do. Pending activity for 10 years....

Why my dreams are endless...

Yesternight was one of the best night I had... I completely overuse this phrase a lot this year, which only proves that everything is awesome in my world! ^__^ (just in my opinion okay?)

Well, why can't it be? I have a very interesting life (If I may say so...in fact, very extraordinary, and it only happens to extraordinary people - quoted from C.S. Lewis) I knew since I was a child that I have to achieve something great than the average people. Why can't I think that way?... my life was a constant reminder that I am different from the usual routines. I must admit, I sometimes feel ostracized and alone because I am different that I sometimes want to belong... but being so comfortable in a small world is dangerous, especially when you have something great to offer that is vital to the world.

Some people's mindset is small, thus they move in their small world, refraining from asking a lot from their lives, the universe, thus, limiting themselves from their capacity. It's not a sin to be that simple, it's just a little sad that a lot of people could not realize their dream because they chose to let it go for it required a huge amount of efforts and sacrifices. Thus they end up being mediocre...and soon, they will get frustrated and when it builds up in them, they will hate themselves and result to being violent, and even hurting other people in the process.

But we must remember what Monsignor Escriva said in his book THE WAY, and I quote: "Why fly like a barnyard hen when you can soar like an eagle?" This is a favorite of mine. It's a constant reminder how we should stop limiting ourselves within the walls of our comfort zones.

Yesternight, I had an opportunity to attend the retreat at Don Bosco, conducted by one of the greatest Salesian priests in the Philippines today., Fr. Armand Robleza. He told us a story, about Swayne.

Swayne was born in a family of ducks. He acted like a duck, made noises like a duck, ate like a duck, went accompanying the other ducks...in short he acted like a duck through and through.

But he has a problem. He was always taunted by his family because he looked different. He was white, has elongated neck and legs, and had powerful wings which he timidly did not dare spread because he was shy. Since he was different from the rest, he felt he was a no good.

One day, an amazing thing happened. While Swayne and the other ducks went paddling in the lake as they used to everyday, a hunter spotted them. He began to shoot at them! And amidst all the ruckus, ducks swimming away in different directions, quacking here and quacking there.... Swayne spread his wings and swiftly flew away to the sky!

The other ducks were mesmerized. They were all shocked and saw that Swayne was actually beautiful! He is not the ugly duck now, for they realized his individual beauty by being himself.



Meanwhile, Swayne had an epiphany too. As he glided, he saw his reflection in the water. He was pleasantly surprised upon seeing his reflection.

"Wow, I am beautiful!" he said, "My neck is long, but it fits well with my long legs and big wings! I am not a duck! Why did I spend my life thinking I am a duck when all along I am a beautiful swan?"

Moral of the story...not that ducks are cursed animals.. (laughs) but stop limiting yourself! Expand your horizons! At times, God sends turmoil and disrupts our peaceful world, our comfort zone, to budge us to fly...because we are meant to be great! Each one of us is great.

Be at peace, for God will take us by the hand! Believe the God who made you, He knows every cells of your body... He knows the talents He gave you, so that when He push you to do something, you know you can, because He said so!!!

God's children will never fear the future... may it be unknown, for they know that God is with them, standing by their side.

Thus, the retreat yesternight ended... with all of my anxieties vanishing into thin air. God answered ALL my questions and eased away my uncertainties in life. And by the way, I got a call, a job interview while I was attending the retreat... just a confirmation that God's blessing is limitless! :D

Let Go If Your Hand is Full!

Yesterday was another grueling day for me... I was accused of doing something I didn't do, I was being falsely accused and it's starting to hurt my reputation as a professional. Well, it has something to do with me being chosen as the best poster among all the rest (which was not a big deal to me really) and now I had to be discredited for my work. Whatever,what's important is that I know I'm good, and I've shown other people that I am. The one who told me I'm not good was just one person... because this person is determined to put me down to rise.

I was the lucky one chosen to be pulled down... I honestly don't care anymore. I have proven my worth, and no one can make me believe otherwise. I know my GOD who made me, and no human being could take that from me. "Do not doubt your value..." C.S. Lewis Voyage of the Dawn Treader.

My sister told me, if my hands are full, let go... yeah, I once heard that from a priest, and they were right. I have to let go and make way to newer things. To new opportunities. How can I catch new and exciting opportunities when my fists are tightly clenched? Holding on to what is no longer for me?

I'll let go alright... but my right hand will be holding on to my God... cheesy eh? But it's true. Now, I have nothing from this world... only Him... and with that, I have everything... :)

Despite everything, I will hold my head up high. This is just a calling for me to spread my wings and fly... I need to navigate the world. Not a small office just around the corner. With God at my side, I know I could overcome every challenge that comes my way. That is assurance enough. And because of that, I will meet my inevitable great future... because I have a powerful God who will guide me to that great path.

Everything, just like the past painful memories from my childhood, would become just distant sadness.... CHEERS to my new life! 2011, thank you for making way for me! :)

*For I am the Lord, your God, who grasp your right hand; It is I who say to you, “Fear not, I will help you.” – Isaiah 41:13

Isaiah 48:17-19
17 Thus says the LORD, your redeemer, the Holy One of Israel I, the LORD, your God, teach you what is for your good, and lead you on the way you should go. 18 If you would hearken to my commandments, your prosperity would be like a river, and your vindication like the waves of the sea; 19 your descendants would be like the sand, and those born of your stock like its grains, their name never cut off or blotted out from my presence.

Feast day of the Immaculate Conception

I woke up early today with severe headache... I have a fever that won't go away for days now. Anyhow, I have a big hunch that today's gonna be a good day :).

I had a dream btw... that dream made me smile... I had been a little anxious about a certain facet of my life, but given that assurance, I had to smile. I hope everything will be alright. I'm so writing it in my journal! teehee :D

Anyhow, I have to go... need to rush to work and I hope to attend Mass tonight or lunchtime.

*Updating...

Just got home from the Holy Mass, and I was so lucky because I was able to witness two newly ordained Salesian priests! It was special because today's the feast day of the Immaculate Heart of Mary!

I was able to hear the "Alleluia" of the great composer Handel! It was so beautiful... It felt like I was transported to heaven, hearing the angels singing the song in unison....

I have been so inspired today. Got so excited over some new ideas that kept popping in my head.

Too many things to do... sigh!

As Christmas is coming nearer and nearer, I realized that I had to rush and make a list already. I'm a little late...

I got sick big time... I didn't know what happened. I was to shoot a pre-nup one Saturday morning, but it was canceled... good thing it was, because that same day I got chills. Then I had high fever all of a sudden. A fever that lasted till Monday night, thus, not enabling me to go work... I needed to finish a lot of things, but I fear my health is no longer with me.

"The spirit is willing but the body is weak" ~_~...

I still have a slight fever today, but it's okay now... I worked when I was sick before. Besides, I don't like to spend my days lying around too much. I am such a workaholic... resting is very much alien to me.

My last entry was about the RH bill... yeah I pretty much ranted about it because I saw a newspaper last Saturday and the Pope's statement was at the headlines. That got my blood boil.

Next year would be a very different year for me. I am ready to make sacrifices, but still I am very much afraid. But I have a promising future, so I have big hope in my capacity.

Life is full of uncertainties, but the adventures lie there... I can't stay doing the same boring routine and have my promising life rot. I will be okay... I just need to promise to myself to stay humble.

First stop, need to work on my language skills, then my people skills, and do research on basic theology... I'm going to write... I hope I won't be too one-sided.

The Church's Stand against RH Bill in question

Before anything else, I am not forcing people to be Catholics... most of my friends don't like being one and I don't force on them my beliefs. But there comes a point wherein the Catholic teachings are being attacked, and some of the statements are being distorted to befit the wishes of the 'pro-choice' movement. These people who are mostly cradle Catholics (people who were born in Catholic families)should just stop being one. They are free to choose their beliefs... just don't lie!

I have been absent for a long time in my duty of defending my Faith. I have observed in silence as the people mocked the Church's beliefs openly.


Most Catholics are like me, they no longer defend their convictions. Or there are also people who have no idea what the Church's stand against some issues in the first place.

I also wonder why, out of all the beliefs, the Catholics are the most oppressed. Anything against Catholic Faith is taken without retaliation and when we retaliate, we receive angrier reactions.

Whilst on the other hand, if one taunts a Jew, A Muslim, A Buddhist and so on, they defend it with great passion.... in the guise of not being too judgmental or racist. It's annoying, especially when fellow Catholics mock the Catholic teachings... I often wonder why not study the Church's teachings first before they turn against it?

I don't know what all the ruckus was all about. In my perspective, the Church is only echoing its tradition from thousands of years ago. It is dignity of every human being that the Church propagates. And the family is a very important unit. Let's face it, people who engage in careless sex produce fatherless children who grow up trying to fill the void of a broken home with a lot of unthinkable things. In our country, which is a poor country, giving away contraceptives will only encourage the poor populace of the country to not think of anything but idle thoughts because of what the media feeds them... which are mostly cheap entertainment.

What the masses need now is guidance towards functioning well in terms of their skills, talents, and gifts bestowed on them. Again, it is not my principle to shove my thoughts to people, All I'm saying is, be a smart person. Don't let the media fool you without knowing the root of the matter first especially when it deals with another person's life (abortion and the health dangers for the baby and the mother)...

In a current issue, I was taken aback because tabloids and newspapers were spreading rumors that the Vatican is switching its stand against contraceptives. It is sad, that the pope's statement regarding the use of condoms of male prostitutes in order to prevent inflicting diseases on other people was distorted to defend people's long time cry for reproductive health bill.

In what I read, the Pope never changed its stand, i.e., the precepts of the Church and its stand against the RH bill. The Pope is there to lead the people, and has no power to change the traditions and beliefs of the Church instituted and founded by Christ. If he does that, then he himself will be subjected to excommunication... and the Pope knew better than anyone what a Catholic Faith is.

Now, the statement of the Pope regarding the condom is not for the people who intends to use it for sleeping around purposes. Sleeping around or casual intimacy with strangers reduce the respect for people as it objectifies another person and human being as someone who will do for the night... for the week, or whatever.

The Church will never change its stand as it is Pro-life. Since the time of the Doctors of the Church (the likes of St. Augustin to St. Thomas of Aquinas), it never changed. In my years of research I found this to be true, I can certainly vouch for that. People may laugh at my serious tone regarding this matter, but I had to write it down. Because mostly, in this age of relativism, the Catholics are treated as old-fashioned, weird, and not practical... which is not true.... ok, old-fashioned maybe... weird in a normal person's perspective, but not practical? ...

As St. Ignatius de Loyola prayed "Only your grace, your love on me bestow, these makes me rich, all else will I forego" kind of crazy... but this is practical... this is FAITH! ;) I wish I am friends with him, alongside St. Francis Xavier ... :P

My Superhero Complex... does it still apply in my world?

I guess watching too much cartoons in my formative years really molded my mind BIG TIME! :D . . . I help people not really expecting anything in return.
I went through life doing that and so in my adolescent stage, it was taken for what it is. But I never thought that being an adult would bring me under suspicion. Mostly, it's pretty annoying. People take my wanting to be helpful as something to benefit me. Let me get things straight... I help because I want this world I live in to be a better place. With my idealistic upbringing and tiny hands, I am hoping that when I grow old, and I look back and reminisce, I could say with satisfaction that I made a difference to the world.

I have seen a cartoon show in my teen years, and the philosophy of the character was deeply ingrained in my brain. The character said about a struggling person walking towards his dreams... "I would rather be of help to him. For I know, with his perseverance and talent, he could succeed wherever he may be... so why not I, do what I could to help him to his inevitable great future?"

So... with these words, I became enthusiastic about reaching out to people who struggle and lend a hand. Help him reach his dreams or whatever. And hopefully, that person too, will recognize my help and extend his help to others. I want a beautiful world for people I come in contact with, and the next generation to benefit the world I have in mind.

What happened to good people? Why are the people around me so selfish already? Where a man live for himself only? It's really sad.... especially when I do things for people and they think I do it because I expect something in return... some even thought I am in love with them. It's sad :(... people no longer have goodness in them. They take advantage of people who do good :( The world is really full of distorted perceptions... and mostly, are made of selfishness. No more values, morals, and principles. I don't want to be judgmental, nor I want to shove my beliefs on people... but I just wish that people could somehow learn how to give without thinking of themselves...even for once.

I had been associating with BIG people recently... and I was impressed that they talk about world affairs and how they could make a big difference to make the world a better place to live in. And they act on it... My ideals were fueled... and I have come to compare their world from my exposure with the people I constantly come in contact with in my daily life.

Small people talk about love life, gossips, and rantings... it's not wrong to occasionally touch these subjects... but to obsess about it, killing their productivity... it's rather sad.

I prefer being alone because I know people will ridicule my BIG plans... One day, I will find my place... with the Big Thinkers like me... :)

CHEERS!