This is indeed a good year for me. It was declared a year of the youths. Thus, I know it will be the start of my good life too! ^_^. It gets exciting everyday... it may not be always about happy times, but I know I have help whenever I need it.
I want to take over the world... really. I know it will take a lot than a small amount of effort, but I have to decide NOW. It's now or never!!! I don't want to let the world pass me by... and besides, I have a task to fulfill.
There's a reason why I am in THIS family.... and for that reason, I need to be my best. I need to uphold my family name because our lives are intertwined with a lot of tasks that needed to be done to help the world. I have to be a role model to the youth, thus I refrain from doing anything against my principles. I am a devout Catholic.... but let me correct any prejudgments that may occur right away after reading that statement. I assure you that my faith underwent a lot of tumultuous doubts and arguments to my logical side before I succumbed to it finally. I am not saying it is an end all and be all, all I'm saying is that being a Catholic is not at all bad, rigid yes, but can be useful when you want to be someone who wants to be honestly connected to God. I want to be an encouragement to others... or rather, I need to be. I wasn't born here to waste that privilege.
It's hard to do my task, but with God's help, I know I can....why, He's my number one Fan! He made me to be me....He knows every cell in my body, and how I should function... and the desire in my heart is the manual for me to function. I need to maximize my usage to its full potential, so that I could face Him at the end of my days, proud and happy.
I have to be ready to face sadness and misunderstanding. I have to be strong... I want to be bold despite the wounds that my journey might inflict on me. I have to be always in high hopes, and high spirits, knowing that God is always at my side, and that HE WILL NEVER ABANDON ME...
I have been so faithful to my God, because all through my formative years, I have experienced a lot of faithfulness on His part. He worked in ways I could not imagine. Gave me big surprises that I could never have conceived in my head. It's a very exciting world for me really... but somehow I get all anxious because I look at my situations in life. I doubt Him, His promises, His faithfulness...
One significant verse that held true in my life was when His words hit me... "I will repay you for the lost years", and it took place in my life. True to His words, he took over and tidied the circumstances for me to walk on. He smoothens the road on which I pass, and if ever I walk in uncertainties, I know He takes me by the hand and take me to a wonderful place.
I want to believe all the time, and tell the world at the top of my lungs about God's goodness, but most of the time, I am gripped with fear. But looking back, and listing all the wonderful gifts God has given me, I know I am in good hands. I shall want nothing. I am teary eyed each time I remember all the wonderful gifts God has given me. And just being with God and recognizing it as the truest gift in this world is also a gift from Him. I love being there with Him...in His presence... Just basking in His holiness, I feel so happy and serene.
It is indeed a good life!
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