My Superhero Complex... does it still apply in my world?

I guess watching too much cartoons in my formative years really molded my mind BIG TIME! :D . . . I help people not really expecting anything in return.
I went through life doing that and so in my adolescent stage, it was taken for what it is. But I never thought that being an adult would bring me under suspicion. Mostly, it's pretty annoying. People take my wanting to be helpful as something to benefit me. Let me get things straight... I help because I want this world I live in to be a better place. With my idealistic upbringing and tiny hands, I am hoping that when I grow old, and I look back and reminisce, I could say with satisfaction that I made a difference to the world.

I have seen a cartoon show in my teen years, and the philosophy of the character was deeply ingrained in my brain. The character said about a struggling person walking towards his dreams... "I would rather be of help to him. For I know, with his perseverance and talent, he could succeed wherever he may be... so why not I, do what I could to help him to his inevitable great future?"

So... with these words, I became enthusiastic about reaching out to people who struggle and lend a hand. Help him reach his dreams or whatever. And hopefully, that person too, will recognize my help and extend his help to others. I want a beautiful world for people I come in contact with, and the next generation to benefit the world I have in mind.

What happened to good people? Why are the people around me so selfish already? Where a man live for himself only? It's really sad.... especially when I do things for people and they think I do it because I expect something in return... some even thought I am in love with them. It's sad :(... people no longer have goodness in them. They take advantage of people who do good :( The world is really full of distorted perceptions... and mostly, are made of selfishness. No more values, morals, and principles. I don't want to be judgmental, nor I want to shove my beliefs on people... but I just wish that people could somehow learn how to give without thinking of themselves...even for once.

I had been associating with BIG people recently... and I was impressed that they talk about world affairs and how they could make a big difference to make the world a better place to live in. And they act on it... My ideals were fueled... and I have come to compare their world from my exposure with the people I constantly come in contact with in my daily life.

Small people talk about love life, gossips, and rantings... it's not wrong to occasionally touch these subjects... but to obsess about it, killing their productivity... it's rather sad.

I prefer being alone because I know people will ridicule my BIG plans... One day, I will find my place... with the Big Thinkers like me... :)

CHEERS!