Thursday, April 1, 2010

My dreams are the only things I own right now...

You don't need to explain your dreams. They belong to you. If you live to please other people, everybody may like you, but your are going to hate yourself . Be the best, but get ready to be attacked. Only mediocrity is safe. Take your risks and be the best. It is the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting. How much I missed simply because I was afraid of missing. The reward for our work is not what we get, but what we become. Your work must take you close to yourself and to God (this is not wishful thinking, you can make it because you are brave!) Trust and start walking. We are not alone in the dark, our path will unfold as we move. R.L.Stevenson once said: "“I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel's sake. The great affair is to move.” If you can't move in the physical world, move in your imagination, but MOVE. - Paulo Coehlo

I did a lot of reflecting lately. While most of my friends look forward to Holy Week as an event wherein they could get a chance to have fun out in the sun, I look forward to it because it is a time for me to recharge and re-arrange my life again. I do not claim that I am better than them because of that... but my character, I believe, requires more intensity. I am not a fun tyrant... my fun is my own company. I am not a fan of being a person who is told what to do... or be a person who do things just because society dictates that it is fun or cool. I create fun for other people. I never cared if people see me as boring, loner, or whatever it is they label me... after all, they can never make me happy... because at the end of the day, only few people who could understand my passion and my purpose are the only people who truly counts in life.

As for my dreams... I think I have it figured out again. Those are the things that unravels itself time and again and I cannot escape it. It stirs in me a great yearning and longing to do it. I think what is lacking in me is focus and intensity...passion and love for my art. But I do believe that my dream is starting to get all fired up again. I will try not to lose focus... because this is a crucial moment for me. I have a big decision making to do... My time of hiding from my path has finally ended... I will try not to get scared, or falter. There may be times that I will fall, I know, but I will have to trust myself...and trust the God who made me to be what I am. I am not Diana Grace for nothing.

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